what if there is no new year

i read from a book that says, actually, there is no such a thing
as "time". it says Man created systems to measure time but
really, there is no time. we try to "read" time by measuring
changes, changes in season, changes in movement, changes
by nature, aging and all but actually, all these methods are
man made.

well, to some extend it's correct. or else how can we once
in a blue moon adjust our time to be more in-line
with each other (country to country, region to region).
but we really do need to have the concept of time so that
life has meaning. imagine if last year was a "bad" year, if there
is no time; no "new year" then you'll be bloody stuck with the
same "bad" year. but then you'll ask-- then how do i explain
that we grow and age? we grow from baby to toddler to young
child to teen., to adult till our body cant function anymore
then we physically cant move an inch. so how can i say that
there's no "time". well.... our body grow, our cells grow, the
tree grow, the tide moves etc etc but that is just growth isnt
it? we measure the physical changes and movements and
systematically record them till we have a standard format
to measure time. anything that exceeds the norm will be
variation. eg; if an average joe or jolin lives till 120 it is like
wow! how did she do that, what was her diet/lifestyle/philosophy?
blah blah. so that is something different.

so anyway, i am not open for debate i am just talking aloud
cos it is 2005 and i love it! waa haha. i love new year. i can
"restart" like a PC to reboot. anything that wasnt working or
got hung just gotta cut loss (loss of data loss of time) and reboot
to get moving. learn from mistakes and do things better.
this year, i will dedicate more time for friends. never neglect
any relationships, of course unless you choose to. i have signed up
for piano lessons. i can hear you laughing (like the interns in my
office,,,, they laugh their heads off) who goes learning piano at
such old age? well.. i do. i have a lot of "JUST FOR FUN" things
to do this year.
(1) piano
(2) painitng
(3) sun tan till golden
(4) emm... DJ scratching workshop (low priority)
(5) resume wake boarding. love it but now very scared....
very tiring one you know? muscle ache for weeks! now you can
imagine how lax my muscles are. really damn unused.
(6) tennis with young cousie (she's been holding me responsible
cos i promised to play with her since last yr) you know, if you said
you'll do something and never get round to do it, for that case itself,
you have failed. you did not "succeed" with action. intention + action
= success. hence, we must always be mindful of what we say we'ld do.
(7) drive. i CONFESS that i am not confident on the road.
BECOS i really cant see super well.... after lasik in 1999....
now i kind of need glasses (50?) but im not used to wearing them
and i DONT want lenses anymore. how? honestly, i am very insecure
that i cant see well... ok. i'll do SOMETHING about it. i met a french
lady at the organic shop. she is a banker by day, yoga instructor by
night. she is quite old... 50 plus plus? but she looks brilliant. her
face is so clear you can almost see her aura shine. she told me that
she is on a detox programme that helps clear ther colon. she regained
75degree of her eye sight in 3 months. (!!!!!) each eye ok. her optician
was shocked and amazed. im happy to learn abt this. at least i know
that there is HOPE to regian my 20/20 vision. so, ya, im gonna try
driving again. this year. very soon. by april i should be on the road.

before i forget.. i wanna tell you abt my christmas last year.
it was one of my happiest christmas. remember i said abt a group
of cousins that i wasnt very close with? we organised a party for
all cousins and only cousins, no dads moms aunts uncles. only
cousins and their kids. it was really fun. we actually got to know
each other better thru games. lots of fun and laughter and you
know what? --- love was in the air.
yap. i said it. love was in the air.
i must say that the effort we make to rebuild the bond is really
sweet. bygones are bygones isnt it? im appreciative for the fact
that we make it a point to stick together.
one of my cousin in NS "bought" his duty for $200. i dont know
WHY they term it as "bought duty" i insisted that it should be
termed "Bought Leave" becos he had to pay his friend to cover
his guard duty so that he can leave. so it should be bought leave
not bought duty.
anyway-- he's so broke and he squeezed the money to buy leave
on christmas day so that he can join our gathering.
that is him. always being mistaken as the problematic one.
i feel that as long as the adults dont impose on him what to
do with his life, there's no problem. so the problem is the adults
isnt it? wa haha.
hey. i wanna go stay at jakarta at his GF's mansion.
i shall call for a cousin mad-nite-out-in-jakarta. should be fun.
(8) cousin mad-nite-out-in-jakarta.

that's my "FOR FUN" list.